Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in the fic. It is fictional only and I do not mean to cause any offence or harm by it.
Rating: 13
“That was lovely dinner, thank you”
“It was no problem, now leave that, and find something on the TV you want to watch” Chris took the washing up liquid out of Karen’s hand, and turned her the direction of the living room while he done the washing up.
After the washing up was done and put away he joined her quite fixed to the TV watching Holby City, they sat in silence again until the end. Chris looked over at Karen with tears streaming down her beautiful face Chris moved over closer to her and wrapped his arms around her he didn’t know what was happening, why she had suddenly burst into tears. Karen saw a woman giving birth in the prevue of the next episode, this just brought the image of her bringing up the baby on her own again and question did she still want this baby?
“Oh Karen darling, whatever is the matter you have been fine for the last few hours?” he could feel her tears through his tshirt.
“I… I can’t…do this… I’m going to be a lonely old woman… for the rest of my life” she said between tears.
“what… what are you going on about of course you’re not going to be lonely you’ve got me, I’m always going to be here for you and you should know that”
“But not as my lover… the person who cuddles me every night… and doesn’t let go of me ever… I will never find anyone in that way again… no man in his right mind is going to want me Christopher” Chris still didn’t have a clue about she was pregnant and sat giving her strange looks, of course she would find someone she was the most attractive woman he’d ever seen in his entire life, he wished he’d made his move on her way back when they were younger and both single and they could have got married and lived happily ever after like a fairy tale.
“Shhhh… you’re so beautiful and attractive Karen you will find a man in no time they will be falling at your feet”
“They won’t trust me… you don’t just get me but…” she couldn’t bring herself to say it but she didn’t know why she wanted to but couldn’t and was getting frustrated with herself because the words wouldn’t come out.
“Karen of course they will I don’t understand why they wouldn’t I mean if I wasn’t married and were single I would” he said placing a kiss on the top of her head.
“Chris no man in their right mind is going to want woman who’s six months shy of 50, with hormones a mood swings all over the place and 11 weeks pregnant with her ex husbands baby… you see why no one is going to want me, I’m going to be bringing this baby up on its own without a dad, and then explain who its dad had an affair with mummy’s best friend and didn’t want nothing to do with it…” Karen blurted it all out sobbing her heart out she knew if she didn’t it would never come out.
“Shhh…”
“I don’t even know if I want this baby now… I don’t want to be bringing it up on my own”
“Everything is going to be alright I’ll be here for you night and day and I’m going to knock that blokes head off how dare he say that… and how dare he have the cheek to have an affair and knock you up at the same time then turn round and say he doesn’t want nothing to do with you or the baby”
“Chris where are you going?” Chris had got up and was rushing around for his shoes.
“Karen it’s not on how dare he, how dare he… who does he think he is?”
“Chris no please just leave it I don’t want to cause any trouble please… for me” Karen pulled Chris back down beside her and couldn’t disobey the way she looked at him was so cute and he didn’t want to upset her anymore than she was, so for her sake left it but he was fuming with Stephen.
Where Karen had pulled Chris back down onto the sofa beside he was sat very close to her close enough that their bodies were touching. Without thinking and not able to stop herself Karen leaned in and passionately kissed Chris on the lips. Chris was taken by surprise you could say he wasn’t expecting this and without thinking himself he kissed her back. When Karen realised what she was doing she pulled away and ran off into the spare bedroom shutting the door. She was so angry with herself this time her tears were of anger she couldn’t believe she just done that. She had just been heartbroken herself finding out her husband had been having an affair then there she was kissing a married man. Chris sat quite shocked still by her move, he didn’t know what to do.
“Karen come back please... what’s the matter?” he asked finally getting up and talking to her through the door.
“I can’t… I’m sorry… I shouldn’t have done that…”
“Karen it’s alright I forgive you and know you didn’t do it on purpose… you’re just upset, hormones, not thinking straight and pregnant I forgive you… please Karen”
“No… I’m sorry… I don’t know what I was thinking… I just wanted to feel loved and just want someone to tell me they love me… oh that just, just sounds so needy and selfish of me… please I just want to be on my own for a while”
Karen cried to herself thinking things over in her head time had gone by so slowly she thought it was a lot later than what it was it felt like it. It was only 10pm. She thought it was early hours of the morning. Once in her cream nightie which was made from a very rich silk, had thin straps at the top, came just above her knee and clung to her figure perfectly she looked in the mirror smiling as she placed her hands on her stomach where there was the tinniest bump forming that was quite visible for what she was wearing. She looked at the time on her phone and heard the TV on in Chris’s room so she went to see him and say apologies for her behaviour that she was appalled her earlier.
“Come in…” Chris answered when he heard the knock on his bedroom door. He was sat up in bed with the lights dimmed watching TV. Karen walked across the room and sat herself down on the edge of the bed.
“Come for a cuddle have we?” Chris asked pulling the covers back and patting the space beside him.
“No I come to say I’m sorry for earlier…” her words were cut off by Chris butting in.
“Karen it’s ok It happened and there’s nothing we can do to change what happened but I forgive you and understand that you are going through a hard time at the moment so nothing has changed between me and you ok” he said reassuring her.
“Ok… and yes I’d love a cuddle it’s just what I need I think I haven’t had one in ages” she said smiling at him as she climbed in next to him and he wrapped his arms around her waist pulling her in close to him after he’d pulled the cover over them both. He turned the TV off and they spoke for a little while in the dark. It was cosy and Karen felt safe in Chris’s arms she had never felt like this with Stephen. She wished she could spend every night with Chris like this but knew she couldn’t and he was married. She wanted to spend the whole night in Chris’s arms but knew she’d have to get back into her own bed soon.
“You know I haven’t like this in years…”
“Like what?”
“Safe… I don’t think me and Stephen have ever slept this close together cuddling in the whole time we’ve been married” tears were welling up in her eyes.
“Do you want to stay in here with me tonight?” he asked placing a kiss on her bare shoulder and she just nodded in reply and snuggled further into him his hands tightening around her body.
“Karen you will be a brilliant mother this baby will be spoilt rotten I Know and be a little skater like its mother, I will be here for you help you out whenever you need babysitting or just some time on your own I know it’s very stressful but you’re going to be a brilliant mum. And Karen you will find someone in no time, you’re a good kisser by the way” she blushed a bit luckily it was dark so he couldn’t see her blush and she let out a little giggle too.
Sorry I haven't updated in a few days and thank you for all the comment x
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She explained: 'Chris is happy because I am' "Make the most of your time and have no regrets."
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in the fic. It is fictional only and I do not mean to cause any offence or harm by it.
Rating: 13
*A few months later*
Chris had been back a couple of days now. He’d gone back to his other home in America to see his two sons Jack and Sam and his wife Jill for two weeks before returning back to the UK. He done this every year after the series and tour had finished. Jayne and Karen had found it very hard throughout what remained of the series and the tour this year they didn’t speak to each other and Karen couldn’t stand the sight of Jayne however they put on an act so they were professional and everything with the show and tour. Nobody in the public eye had suspected anything between the two women but it was an open secret among the crew and cast at DOI.
Karen was now quite heavily pregnant at 30 weeks not long left of her pregnancy now and hormones that were changing every hour of the day. One minute she’d be all happy and cheery then the next she turn the completely the opposite blaming everyone around her for everything that went wrong and she’d say stuff that she didn’t mean making other people upset then getting really upset herself.
“Chris I was thinking a lot while you were away” Karen said when they sat that afternoon watching TV not really paying much attention to what was on.
“What about?” Chris asked turning the volume of the TV down a little so he could hear her.
“When I give birth… I want you to be there with me” There was no reply straight away Chris didn’t know what to say back at first he didn’t know if he should feel honoured that she wanted him at the birth or whether it was just weird.
“Me… Really… What actually in the same room as you when you give birth?”
“Yes, please Chris” Karen was practically begging for him to be at the birth she didn’t want to go through it on her own.
“Karen I’m sorry but I can’t do that it would be wrong, being there while my best friend gives birth in the same room, no sorry Karen it makes me feel terribly uncomfortable just thinking about it I can’t Jill she wouldn’t like it either”
“Oh please Chris” He could see the tears building up in her eyes they were about to spill any second.
“No sorry, I’m sorry about your marriage breaking up like that and I feel so bad for saying I can’t be there with you Karen but I can’t risk my marriage breaking up as well… Jill is already being off with me because she knows you’re staying here, she’d hit the bloody roof if she found out I was going to be with you when you gave birth” he felt so guilty because she was his best friend but he just wouldn’t feel comfortable to be there but it made him feel so bad inside for letting her down.
This time it was the other way round and Karen didn’t reply straight away but suddenly began to shout very loudly pacing up and down the living room with her hands rubbing the large baby bump gently. She didn’t mean to start shouting but she felt so lonely even though Chris was looking after her very well and helping her as much as he could she still felt lonely inside.
“OH STUFF WHAT JILL SAYS SHE’S JUST JEALOUS BECAUSE YOU SPEND MORE TIME WITH ME THAN YOU DO WITH HER… YOU KNOW WHAT I DON’T THINK I EVEN WANT TO HAVE THIS BABY ANYMORE I’VE GOT NO ONE NOW AND AS SOON AS THIS LITTLE ONE COMES ALONG, THERE WON’T BE A BLOKE OUT THERE WHO WILL WANT ME BECAUSE YOU DON’T JUST GET ME BUT A SCREAMING BABY TOO…”
“Karen come back you know that’s not true what you’re saying and you’re too far into the pregnancy now anyway… Karen come back where are you going?” she put her shoes on and slammed the front door on her way out.
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She explained: 'Chris is happy because I am' "Make the most of your time and have no regrets."
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in the fic. It is fictional only and I do not mean to cause any offence or harm by it.
Rating: 13
*** Chris had left it just over an hour before going to find Karen. He knew where she’d be, she always went there when she was upset and wanted her own quietly little space. He walked down to the little beach that was nearby to them it was quiet and peaceful there that’s why Karen loved it and that would be the first place she went to when she was in a mood or upset.
When he got to the beach the sun was setting and it looked beautiful the sky was a pretty orangey colour, the waves were gently moving up and down the shore you could hear them in the peaceful background as well as the seagulls. The temperature was just perfect not too hot and not too cold just in the middle.
Chris walked up and down the path that was at the top of the beach before you walked down the steps and onto the sand. He stopped half way when he spotted Karen standing by the sea. She was in her own little world just staring into space and occasionally would look down at her feet where the waves were gently brushing past her ankles. She had one hand on the bump stroking it and the other she was holding her sandals in.
“Karen… Karen… Ka… re… nnn!” Chris called her name three times as he began to get closer to her. She could hear him calling her name but choose not to reply to him until the third time and began.
“What do you want?” she replied in a very moody and vicious tone as she tried to walk away but her pulled her back.
“Where are you going?”
“I don’t know away from you”
“Karen stop being silly, feeling sorry for yourself and come back, you can’t just run away and lock yourself in a cupboard for the rest of your life because you have the stupidest thought ever in your head that ‘no one will want you’ that is just silly Karen”
“I’m not being silly, but…”
“But what Karen?”
“I can’t cope anymore being on my own, everyone thinks I’m happy and everything because I have a baby on the way but it’s not like that at all, I’ve got no one my best friend is shacked up with my husband, Stephen keeps sending me texts and messages on facebook about sorting the divorce out and getting the papers signed, I’m going to be giving birth any day soon and my best-est friend in the whole of the world won’t be there at the birth of my child… thanks so much Chris, so everything isn’t all happy and cheery in my life now you can stop going on at me, you know when you were in America I missed you, I really, really, really missed you I cried myself to sleep at night I hated you not being there” she began sobbing her heart out, allowing Chris to pull her in closely to him this time for a warm comforting hug.
“Karen, how are you lonely you’ve got me darling I’m here for you night and day you know that”
“All I wanted was for you to be at the birth it’s not like I want an affair or anything, unless you want to but are scared that you might be taking advantage of a nearly 50 year old woman who’s pregnant and mood swings all over the place and a bit on the crazy side at the moment… is that why you got so stressed out about it when I asked?” ever since the accident kiss that happened a few months ago both Karen and Chris had not thought of nothing else but being with each other but neither had said anything.
“No… of course not I’m married and that’s why I can’t be at the birth of another woman’s child I’m sorry, but I will stand by you night and day and help you out as much as I can like I said to you before so don’t forget that”
“Ever since the night we kissed by accident that’s all I can think about, it was nice, no it was more than nice…. I love you Chris”
“I don’t ever remember you being this hormonal when you were carrying either of the girls” Chris said changing the subject as it was one he didn’t want to talk about at the moment leaving Karen upset and more angry with herself to why she said what she did she felt like a fool.
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She explained: 'Chris is happy because I am' "Make the most of your time and have no regrets."
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in the fic. It is fictional only and I do not mean to cause any offence or harm by it.
Rating: 13
*** It was early hours of the morning and exactly a week until Karen’s Birthday. Both Karen and Chris had gone to bed (in separate beds) quite early that night, earlier than they usually would. Karen had been tossing and turning most of the night and was beginning to fidget more and more as the night went on.
Suddenly there was a screech that came from the other end of the apartment that woke Chris up with quite a fright and he immediately ran to Karen’s room. He flicked the lamp on that was by her bed and saw her lying in the middle of the bed clutching her stomach, very flushed in the face and in tears of pain.
“Chris, I think my waters have broken” she said panicking she had been dreading this day and Chris was standing in front of her trying not to panic.
“OK, right just try and stay calm and keep taking deep breaths in and out like they showed you at the antenatal classes the other week, I will go and phone for an ambulance”
“Chris, don’t leave me please” she begged taking deep breaths in and out.
“I won’t I will get the phone and come straight back here”
Chris ran into his bedroom to get his IPhone and dialled 999 and asked for an ambulance to come straight away then went straight back to Karen. He climbed onto the bed beside her stroking her forehead gently while they waited for the ambulance to arrive.
“It’s ok you’re going to be fine. The ambulance is on its way just keep taking deep breaths”
It didn’t take the ambulance long to get to Karen and soon she was at the local hospital and had been moved into a private ward.
“Chris please don’t leave me, I really need you here when the contraptions get bigger please I can’t do this on my own…”
“Chris pleaseeee If I wasn’t in this condition I would get down on my hands and knees and beg, Jill doesn’t have to find out about this…”
“Ok”
“Thank you” Karen replied quietly and smiled at him as another contraption came.
The contraptions were coming quicker each time and now more regularly and midwifes were sent up to Karen. They quickly introduced themselves to her and done a few quick tests on her.
“Ouch… Karen do you have to pinch my hand so hard you’re going to break it in a minute”
“You don’t know what bloody pain is” Karen snapped back and pinched his hand even harder making him want to scream in pain.
“We can give you something to ease the pain if you like Miss Barber” one of the midwives said trying to calm her.
“No, I’m fine, he will be fine the baby will be fine I want a 100% natural birth”
“Ok, but if you change your mind at any time let us know”
“I don’t blame Stephen for wanting get out of this one you’re killing my hand it has actually gone numb” Chris said jokingly however Karen didn’t find it funny.
“Chris that was not funny”
“No it wasn’t you’re right, I’m sorry”
“One last push Miss Barber”
“Would you like to do the honours of cutting the umbilical-cord sir?” one of the midwives asked looking at Chris, who looked at Karen.
“Chris please, you’ve seen almost everything now what difference is cutting the umbilical-cord going to do?”
He agreed to do it and there was a small new born cry that came from the tiny baby who had just been born. The midwives took the tiny bundle away to be weighed and have a few routine tests done, giving Karen a couple of minutes to just relax and lie down for a moment before the tiny bundle was passed back to her.
“Congratulations Miss Barber, you’ve got a little girl who’s very healthy” the midwives left Karen, Chris and the tiny baby in peace for a while.
If you didn’t know, the three of them sat on the bed snuggled up together looked like a little family and it made Karen so happy and Chris’s feelings were suddenly changing for Karen. After the event of the last few hours he felt he had become a lot closer to Karen and had feelings for her he’d never had like before, he was starting to fall in love with her.
“She’s beautiful Karen, nearly as beautiful as her mother” he couldn’t resist temptations any longer and leaned forward placing a soft but passionate kiss on her lips.
“Chris…” she didn’t know what to say.
“Karen, if we’re going to be together it can’t be an affair I’m still married even though you’re not anymore but, I can’t resist you any longer I love you Karen Barber, nothing else can happen until I’ve spoken to Jill but I just wanted you to know that I love you”
“And I love you too, but what’s brought all of this on?”
“Ever since you kissed me a few months ago that’s all I’ve thought about I wasn’t just saying that when I said you were a good kisser I meant it, and today and through your pregnancy I guess it’s brought us closer and I want someone who will look after you and this gorgeous little baby properly… so what are you going to call her?”
“Hmmm… I don’t know yet I haven’t really thought of names, will you help me think of when we get out of this place?”
“Of course I will”
They shared another passionate kiss!
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She explained: 'Chris is happy because I am' "Make the most of your time and have no regrets."
