I thought it was about time I wrote another fic and decided to write one about Chris' past. Anything in italics is supposed flashbacks. Of course this is made up fic based on what we already know about Chris' childhood. No harm intended just a made up story.
It was the morning after Jayne and Chris had filmed for Piers Morgan and it was safe to say that both of them were feeling a little bit emotionally fragile following the in depth interview. Karen had been keeping a close eye on both of them, but Chris in particular as she joined him on their living room sofa that morning.
"Coffee for you." She said, placing it down onto the coffee table in front of him before snuggling against his side with her cup of tea.
"Thanks..." Chris trailed-off, in his own little world.
"You okay?!" Karen asked-him softly.
"Yeah...Just thinking..." Chris replied.
"About what??" Karen questioned, curiously.
Chris sighed, leaning forwards and resting his elbows on his knees as he took a sip of his coffee before putting it back down again. "I hope my Mum doesn't watch it when it's on..."
"What...Piers Morgan you mean?! Why'd ya say that?!" Karen asked-him, but he stayed silent. "Chris..."
"You'll think I'm being silly..." Chris replied.
"No I won't...But I will if you don't start talking to me." Karen told-him.
"I don't do talking..." Chris trailed-off, with a heavy sigh, as though he had the weight of the world on his shoulders.
A young Chris walked into the living room to find his Dad pacing up and down the living room, angrily. Mavis had just found out about his affair with Betty, and he was panicking about what he was going to do."Are you okay Daddy?" Chris asked his Father. "It's nothing you need worry about Buster." Colin told his young son. "Why are you sad?" Chris asked-him. "I'm not sad buddy, I just need to think now off you go up to your room like a good boy." Colin said, trying to usher his Son upstairs, not wanting him to get caught in the crossfire when Mavis returned and they had it out with each other. "Why won't you tell me?!" Chris asked, impatiently. "I said...ROOM!" Colin shouted, making a young Chris tearful. "Owh Buster, I'm sorry." The stressed man sighed.'"You're horrible. You never tell me when you're sad. You don't even tell Mummy. I hate you!" Chris shouted, before running upstairs to cry.
"Heyyy come on, don't close up on me." Karen told him, concerned for her Husband.
"The way I spoke in the interview, it sounds like I loved my Dad and blamed my Mum for everything. But that's not true, and I don't want her to think that I blame her for everything. I'm well aware that my Dad played a big part in it all too. I mean, don't get me wrong, I loved that man more than anything, but...Over the years I've learned to love my Mum again too..." Chris admitted.
"Did you ever find out why she made no contact with you after she left?!" Karen asked him.
"No...And I don't want to know...Because either way...If it was my Dad that told her to leave and never come back then that means that he virtually threatened my Mum. And that's not the man I remember. And if it was her own decision...Then that means my Mum chose never to see me ever again...To miss out on her little boy's childhood. And Either way it would break my heart Karen, either way it would mean that their love for me came second to something else. So if I don't know then it just saves me a lot of heartache." Chris told her, becoming a little bit tearful as he spoke.
"Owh Darlin'...It hurts me to know what a sad time you must of had as a little boy. If that was my girls...It would break me knowing I'd forced that kind of childhood on them..." Karen trailed of sadly.
Mavis entered Chris' bedroom, having just made the final decision with Colin. "Christopher sweetheart, Mummy needs to talk to you." She said, sitting down next to him on the bed. "And I need you to be a brave and grown up boy for me okay?!" Mavis told him, barely holding back her tears as she spoke. "Why were you and Daddy shouting at each other?! And don't say you weren't because I heard you." Chris said, upset that his parents were arguing. Something really bad had happened, but he didn't know what...Yet...
"Sweetheart, me and Daddy had an argument. But there's something else that I need to tell you...Christopher...I have to leave." Mavis broke the news to her little boy. "Leave? But where are you going?!" Chris asked her, worriedly. "That doesn't matter Darling, but the thing is, is that I'm not coming back." She told him. "But Mummy I dont want you to go. Please don't go." A 6 Year Old Chris cried and pleaded with his Mother. "I have to Sweetheart. Im so so sorry okay?! Maybe one day you'll understand. Goodbye my boy. I love you so much." Mavis said through her tears, kissing him on the forehead before leaving his bedroom.
"Dya know I remember crying for hours and hours after she left...And then Betty arrived and I hated her. I used to think up terrible lies about her that I could tell my Dad about her, just so she might have to leave. I never built up the courage to tell him tho..." Chris told his partner truthfully.
"But you loved Betty as a teenager, you even called her Mum, so she must have won you over in the end?!" Karen asked.
"Yeah, she was a bit unpredictable, she'd fly off the handle at the slightest thing. But she did love me and treated me like her own...And in the end I guess I learned to love her like she was my own too...In my own weird way. She introduced me to skating, so I'll always be grateful to her for that..." Chris said.
"I guess you were just grieving for your real Mum...Do you think you'll ever talk to her about your past?!" Karen asked him.
"No...I couldn't. It would mess me up...Up here..." Chris said, pointing to his head. "I've just about managed to put all of this behind me and get my head around it all. It's been painful enough bringing it all up again on Piers Morgan."
"But despite all of that, look at everything you have achieved. You certainly haven't let it hold you back Have ya?!" Karen told him, proudly.
"No, 'cos I was determined not to. If I hadn't of had skating, I don't know what I would have done. It's why I liked to go fast, I used to think the faster I skated, the further away all of that unhappy stuff was from me. Like it couldn't catch me whilst I was skating 'cos I could beat it. It made me feel free. Still does actually." Chris told Karen, it was like he was a little boy again.
"I'm sorry you ever had to feel like that Chris." Karen said, rubbing his back comfortingly
"It's not your fault...I guess it's not anyone's fault really...Ya know all of this...It's the reason both of my marriages fell apart...And part of me is glad...Part of me likes to think that everything happens for a reason...And if I was still with Jill, then you and me would never have happened. I'm happier now, with you, than I ever have been Karen. But sometimes I wonder what I'd have been like if I'd had 2 loving parents who had a stable marriage like Jayne's parents...Sometimes I wonder if I'd have been a better person..." Chris admitted, sadly as he sniffed away a stray tear.
"Chris, you're a beautiful person. You're caring, sensitive, clever, down to earth...Goodness knows, you're even funny sometimes." Karen chuckled.
"Impatient, bossy, OCD, weird, cheesy..." Chris reeled off.
"And I wouldn't want you any other way...Besides, I wouldn't call you bossy, just focussed. And I happen to quite like your cheesiness." Karen said with a sweet smile, still rubbing Chris' back.
"Really?!" Chris asked.
"Really, you're attractive, you dress well, you're romantic, honest, and the most amazing ice dancer and choreographer I've ever known...And I know a lot of ice dancers!" Karen exclaimed.
"But what about Jayne?! Chris asked.
"Ah, well she's your equal isn't she?!" Karen said.
"Yeah she is." Chris said, finally smiling.
"Ah that's what I've been waiting for. That gorgeous, cheeky, lopsided smile of yours." Karen said, placing her hand against his cheek and rubbing it with her thumb.
"Thank You...For listening to me wallowing..." Chris told his girlfriend, gratefully.
"It's what I'm here for. I love you so much. And I love you for whi you are Chris. So don't you ever go changing...Okay?!" Karen asked-him.
"Alright..." Chris trailed-off, kissing him on the cheek before hugging him tightly.
Phewf! That was long, please comment if you enjoyed this!
